As I approach the two-month period since lockdown started for me, here in the U.K. I’ve been reflecting on all that has happened.
Of course there is still some way to go, and more experiences to yet have, with some more lessons to come. That’s for sure. But I thought as some of the measures begin to ease, that it is worthwhile to write about some of my insights so far.
It has been a very strange and surreal time. That much is undeniable. I also appreciate that for many this has been a horrific and distressing time.
For most, including myself, it has been challenging, at least from time to time. I don’t know of many people who have sailed through it.
However, for me, in retrospect, it has been rather wonderful overall.
Just to provide a bit of context: For about the last 7 years or so I have tried to live consciously, minimally and slowly. By that I guess I mean mindfully.
Mindfulness introduced me to meditation, and that in turn reintroduced me to yoga. (I had dabbled with yoga in my early twenties, but it never seemed to make sense to me then the way it does now).
But the essence of mindfulness is what initially inspired me to make the life changes that have essentially lead me to this moment here. Which is all that matters, right?
Please do not be mistaken, I continue to evaluate and make changes every day. I am always learning. I am not living in a state of perfect Zen, far from it. After all, mindfulness, yoga and meditation are all practices that require consistency, and plenty of compassion when (not if) we slip.
We are all human, and the human mind and the world that we live in (especially now) are incredible entities.
There’s a lot to take in. There is constant analysis, distraction and information at every turn. But, incredible as they are – driving forth creativity, meaning and purpose, they can also create a lot of noisy nonsense; needing to be regularly kept in-check.
Back in March, at the beginning of all of this in the U.K., I recall feeling anxious about the looming lockdown. I was primarily concerned about physical health, that of my children, my husband, my family, my friends and, of course, myself.
But I also remember thinking that if anyone can handle lockdown, then it would be me. Given my tendency to live moment to moment, preferring calm and being over hurry and doing: usually refraining from getting caught-up in the busyness of the world and all of its distractions. So I figured I’d have a good start in this new normal. Which proved to be quite true.
However, it wasn’t all easy. I had a moments when I got to take a really good look myself. I have learnt so much more about myself. I’ve identified areas of my life that I’d like to make changes. I’ve clarified goals, which involved being really truthful with myself. I’ve tested a number of lifestyle choices and core beliefs. I’ve begun to write over some persistent internal voices. And, in order to do all of this, I’ve taken the time to get peacefully quiet. Which has been mostly blissful.
All of which has only be made possible by going through the lockdown situation.
With that in mind, let’s see what tomorrow brings.
Om shanti x